i miss you….

3rd shift has taken me away from you. in the past it seemed to bring us closer but now…. 😦

if you daydream at night… is it still daydreaming?

i imagine you swollen and glowing.

you are the most beautiful woman in the world to me  I love you from afar……


oi what a morning

everything went crazy this morning….. breakfast was fine….. but then… i went to get on the computer and my oldest has scratched up my desk because “well it was already messed up” …. she was the one who messed it up last year. uuhhgg

then i notice something has been spilled into my keyboard and its all sticky and the spacebar is not working right

then i notice all the spy were install has messed up several setting on the thing! now it wont print and the usb ports are reporting errors and that they are sending me messages that they are in compatiblity mode!!!!

i cant print the directions for spring to get the boy to cubscouts today!!! ahhhhh

neen hugs!

i miss our long nights together… i hope you are doing wonderfully. I think about you often. ❤


“Come to me in my dreams, and then
By day I shall be well again.
For then the night will more than pay
The hopeless longing of the day.

Come, as thou cam’st a thousand times,
A messenger from radiant climes,
And smile on thy new world, and be
As kind to others as to me.

Or, as thou never cam’st in sooth,
Come now, and let me dream it truth.
And part my hair, and kiss my brow,
And say My love! why sufferest thou?”

but my itunes queued up our song and it was like i was listening to it again for the first time. 🙂

that song is so soft and true it just touches me so deeply.  When i hear it i’m back with you having endless nights… exposing my soul to a lover.. trusting… holding  feeling whole.

I love you

For my soulmate

when i wake up in the morning you are there

my lips smile

my heart skips

the fog clears my mind

as my day goes by and i keep moving that dirt swinging the hammer my mind drifts to you

what are you doing … how is your day…. did you sleep well… did you enjoy the rain shower.

and driving home you call just to hear my voice.

my lips smile

my heart skips

the fog clears my mind

at home making diner … what are you having… are you working late… did you think of me too.

and climbing into bed you are there

my lips smile

my heart skips

the fog fills my mind

and I dream of my Paramour… yes dear.

for you today :)

Your smile is a beautiful smile
It comes straight from your heart
Your smile shines like a beacon
The love in it tears me apart
Your smile shows in your eyes
It’s pure and joyous to see
Your smile brightens up my life
Its pure love just for me
Your smile can brighten the darkest day
Your smile can take my pain away
Your smile just turns me upside down
Your smile in which I could forever drown
You smile at me and I am bowled over
At how it changes your face
Such love and joy and happiness
Such dignity and grace
Your smile can take me through the darkest nights
Your smile makes me cope with the horrible fights
Your smile does so much you see
Your smile full of love just for me